An Update

So just thought I would update you all on what is happening with us.

Shawn’s mom is in the hospital, she has been sick for quite awhile…..She found out that she had stage four cervical cancer about two years ago the cancer spread to her lungs and then she had surgery to remove the cancer from her lungs and radiation on her cervix. We were told that she was cancer free last year and were very excited.

This year the cancer returned. It has now spread to the point of no treatment. She has been in the hospital for almost two weeks now and is very weak. She has entered the palliative care program but we are not certain whether she will be moved to a nursing home or just stay in the hospital. At this point she is not communicating very well and only sometimes recognizes us.
We are preparing ourselves for the worst as we know it is on its way. We have been to the hospital every night for two or three hours spending time with her and talking with doctors.

Shawn is doing okay. He is very angry at the moment which he is allowed to be. I am having hard time trying to figure out how to be there for him. I am a talker (I know that comes as a surprise to most of you but I am)…. I am finding that I just need to shut my mouth, nothing I say can bring Shawn’s mom back to better health, I often find myself sitting feeling helpless watching my husband go through the hardest time in his life and not being able to do anything about it.

As for Carly I think that we actually have good news this time.

CFS called us and said that they are tired of Carly’s mom’s games so they are taking her as a permanent ward and they are sending an adoption agent to come and see us and to go over a few things with us.

So that sounds positive I am going to keep my head up and hopefully they will follow through with what they say this time. We are trying not to get our hopes up as they have said this before and not followed through with it but a small glimpse of hope is always good.

We are trying not to stress ourselves out over the little things like money and stuff but when we are going to have to pay for an adoption and a funeral all around the same time it is very hard but God has provided for us before so I am sure he will again.

Anyway, Thank you all for your support thus far It always feels like I am complaining on this blog. I never meant to have the blog so I could complain it was more for keeping in touch but I suppose I will have great news to post one day once we get past all this tough stuff.