Things with Carly still chaos as usual but God has given me peace about it.
Peace,
It is funny this place God has me. For about the past two to three years of my life I have noticed that I have had major anxiety issues. I often find myself lying in bed feeling anxious. After Shawn's mom passed I thought that it would end. When it didn't I began thinking what is my issue.
Finally it seems to be ending I have began just letting things go and praying alot. Michelle our pastor's wife spoke in church a couple weeks ago and I found it so up lifting. I need to focus on doing good for others!
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9
I decided I am not giving up! I am going to move forward. I need to continue in my life moving forward for me, My husband, my daughter, my family and my friends.
I will not be scared anymore of what MAY happen I need to focus on what IS happening.
As for Carly, I am not sure if we will end up having her permanently but I can only pray and have faith that God has a plan. Whether this plan is to be full time with Shawn and I or not I pray that he places Carly with the family that can give her the stability and love she deserves.
A few things I am thankful for:
My husband and Daughter. Watching them play together brings me soooo much joy. Hearing them laugh at each other melts my heart.
One of my good friend's mom is in Haiti right now.... reading her blog has inspired me. I can only hope that one day I can mirror the selflessness and faith that she has.
My Mom. My mom has ALWAYS been there for me no matter what. She is my best friend.
I am VERY excited about meeting my new niece. Can't wait, what will she look like? her hair colour, her eye colour OH MAN SOOO Excited!!!!
Going to the Gym with my beautiful friend Jae! It is very uplifting having someone beside you that you love at the gym. I often feel like I want to give up and forget going but she ALWAYS encourages me to keep pressing forward.
I am thanking Jesus for what he has given me and looking forward to the days ahead!!!!
